i love reading crappy blogs

n when i said crappy, i really dont mean crappy as in crappy technically.. or literally la. crappy blogs,how to say aa, r like mine, which doesnt tell ppl anything else but MY own story of MY own thoughts of life n every other things that evolves around me. haha. i dont like to read the all-so-knowledgeable or should i say knowledge-based or knowledge-full..? kinda blogs. it is soo full of info. useful info that is. i love reading more relaxed, non complex things which when i read, wont bother me, change the way i live my life , that i dont have to think bout serious things just to complicate my life n my thoughts.[ape aku ngarut nih?]

yes i am ignorant. i choose to be.

i read your blogs. that is if urs are not the knowledge-type blogs laa. n just bcoz i dont leave any comment doesnt mean i dont read yours. i do. read every single post.haha. so beware. i read n i think. i compare. sometimes i adore. sometimes jealousy comes by. but i dunt hang to it lama2 la.

sometimes when ppl tell sad stories, i feel sad for them. but i cant say i feel their pain. coz ,seriously , i dont.unless ive been in the same situation b4. so its very hard for me to say that i feel sorry for u becoz seriously, i dont. yea im a cold person. whatever.i still dont know how to console people in time of lost.

*** *** even said i am kerek. what the hell. like i care anyway.like u r any better than me. even if u r. like i care anyway.

aih sometimes i feel lucky to be in this batch , whatever8 it was. i dont remember. becoz i think i can get to know all the funny sides of ppl. n weird things ppl can do. it just amaze me at times.

but now i dont really feel the same anymore. sometimes i feel some of the people are so fake. including me. ive been fake. most of the times pon. sometimes it feels so tiring to continue faking. i dunt know y i did it. maybe i bcoz i want to be accepted. n it work.or so i think.

sometimes im so sick n tired of pretending n faking n biting back my tongue just so that i wont hurt anybodys feelings. but well, im hurting me instead. ive been doing this so many times i think adding up all the hurtssss i might as well just died last program during beyong borders. hoho. ya i am fake. but i think they will like me better that way. kot. tah it goes ok so far, so lets just continue another year. i think i'll get my ass out of uia after next yr. remind u, i THINK. IF i want to continue 2nd part i'll probably do it elsewhere. I THINK. but seriously if i continue there than i'll just have to bear with it another 2 years adding to the next one year. demmit.

however im so greatful i have another set of frens out of uia, my soul sisters u know who u r. i sooooooooo luv u ppl. i didnt realise it back then but now i really do.sometimes i m jealous of syaza. yeay rite. syaza marya. bcoz she hv frens in uia that i wish can ihave. ppl who can accept u for who u r n even helps u mbaguskan diri lagi.ppl who u think u can be comfortable in ur own skin la senang cte. not like ppl in kaed who i think, in my opinion la. mind u this is my blog anyway so im going to say everything based on my opi. always see the bad sides of everything. well, ppl n architecture.ppl in architecture. we re soo full of egos. u cant deny. its true. im wearing a facade every day. there r just a handfull of ppl in kaed that i feel i can be with without my facade. n no, they r not the ppl who u think i might include in my list.ppl closest to me. no they r not.ya think again u loseR!!!!!!!! wwwwwahahhaha. aku mmg dh tekanan skang.

anyhow, i love the dindas. i really hope nothing can come between us.

n to kaedians who reads this. im so sorry. but u make me this way.

n kuhaz u r included in my no-facade-list. seriously. n lydia, n shidan. haha. airil pn bole la.. ade lagi ke ek? tahla tatau. ;P